It is 2016. Hope you guys had fun celebrating with whoever whatever. And as many others, we always like to give a a quick look back into the year, seeing what went wrong and what went right. Well, there was no right for me in 2015. No right worth mentioning anyway. I didn't not enjoy 2015 at all.
It was the worst year I have ever had in my entire life (so far). The year was filled with event, don't get me wrong, but those events, those that mattered anyway were pretty negative ones. It was a bad year right from the start and only went downhill. The worst part? Even when I tried to make it better by having fun on the very last day of 2015, it only ended up to be worst then anything before.
I went to the countdown party hoping to meet new people there and enjoy with the people I know. But I ended up looking fucking pathetic and just having the worst night of my life. Ugh.
I see people celebrating New years eve and I wanted to strangle them. You know when you just suddenly get pissed off at everyone for breathing or something of the sorts, well I had that except multiply it a billion-fold. Why? Because as a happy person you really get don't angry all that much. But when you do you suddenly become angry at the whole world for existing and you wish you could burn everyone that just walks by you. I was pissed. Not at anyone but for having to go through that shit for one entire year.And the thing is, you will never know if the next year will be like the last. Will it be better? Will it be worse? There is no way of knowing. And that's the one thing that I am so afraid of. What if 2016 will be as bad or even worse? What if I don't make it out? What if the what ifs don't become what ifs anymore? I hated 2015. i hated the way it began and the way it ended. The one thing that will make me happy is if I could just start burning people alive and shout and scream and just see people trying to go through what I did. Sadist? You could say so. Psychopath? Pushing it, but I'll take it. I don't care if I'm judged for what I said because everyone has the same thoughts too. I just have enough balls to say them. I don't want to wish people a Happy new year. I don't like giving people expectations. I didn't havee a good year and I don't want people too either.
